I can't get a grip of my life. I have been trying my best to fix every problem. I'm so sick of my life. It seems like everything is falling out of place. Why can't things be what I want them to be? My eyes are sore from all these crying. I can't take it anymore.
One thing that I learned from all these experience, I learned that I gotta be strong. Eventhough I am in the verge of breaking down, I gotta show them that I'm tough and never give up. I realized that I shouldn't be afraid to admit my mistakes. I am just a human being with imperfections. People shouldn't look down upon me because they have their own set of imperfections too. I am not afraid to take chances anymore. Those recent happenings taught me so much. I am much more independent on myself. There will be no one who you can depend on when you have heavier problems but yourself. And no matter what, I never failed to take time to pray. I know that He has better plans for me than I have for myself.
Friday, January 05, 2007
Promenade
Ma'am Cindy told us about this year's prom. She even asked us if we wanted to have one. Before, I was really looking forward into attending my first prom. But now, it seems like it has lost its spark. I mean, I am not that excited anymore.
We will be celebrating our prom '07 at the Central Bank. Although, the teachers aren't so sure about the venue. We were surprised because we thought we would only have it at our school. Himala?!
So, it was a good change because it was different. But when Ma'am Cindy discussed about the costs, we started to react. Apparently, having a prom isn't that cheap. It costs much. The attire should be our 'best sunday dress'. But knowing us[the marisians-including myself], we would spend much bread. Sa manicure pa lang siguro at sa pag-make up.
My plans? Nothing in particular. I haven't got a dress yet- I haven't decided wether to buy, or custom-made it. I just want a simple, but elegant and nice facade. I don't even want to expect anything. I just want to have fun and to treasure the moments.
Thursday, January 04, 2007
New Year
Eventhough It's too late, I would like to greet everyone a happy new year!
It was quiet here in Davao last new year's eve. Unlike other cities, fireworks weren't allowed. It was funny how we celebrated new year's eve. I was honking the car, screaming and of course, the famous 'talon-talon' ritual. I had to do it to my belief that it would make me taller.
Evaluation of how I spent my 2006 - I couldn't say anything in particular. All the things that happend to me were bitter-sweet. I admit that last year wasn't that fun at all. Full of regrets, pains, heartbreaks, and all. But, there were also things that I would like to cherish and hopefully, do again. Like playing basketball in a court. That was fun. I wasn't even ashamed eventhough how lame I played even how people look at me in a weird way. If their eyes could talk, they would probably tell me that I didn't fit in the court. Haha! But, alas. I did. I tried various sports. That made me realize that I can do anything if I only have the guts.
I also learned to be simpler than before. Not really the true definition of 'simple', but for me, I think I can survive without camera, without my powder, lipgloss, cheektint, and all.
Most of all, I learned to be stronger. I learned that I shouldn't cry over the littlest things and worry over silly stuffs. Eventhough, I have my fair share of mistakes and bloopers at the start of this year, I can say that I have moved on. I am a lot stronger, wiser and most of all, I am happier than ever. =)