I know that I am a stubborn girl. I always wanted it my way. You may not understand the way I chose to live my life. You may think that I want to just enjoy and look at the bright side of things and ignore the dark side. You may think of me as the irresponsible eldest and my younger brother would suit my position better. Yes, you may think that I don't take things seriously that is why you blame me when I get low grades and tell me that I could've done better. You try convince me that I can pass the ACET test if I would've been more serious. Well, that's what you think. I cannot blame you though because that's what I made you believe.

But I am not like you, or my father, or my cousin, or some random person you want me to be. I make no excuses of who I am and what I choose. I don't want to be the person you want me to be. I don't want you to take over my life and dictate meall the time. Yes, maybe you would probably add to your list of sermons of my being immature and not understanding your plans for me. Just note that I have not been 'NOT serious'. I try to do my best in all things and I always try to impress you, but maybe God made me a stupid person.

Don't worry. I am a good kid. I would do whatever you wanted me to do. I'll study in f*cking [insert university here] but when I would look back and become successful-come what may, no I would not ever say that it was my choice. My heart belongs to some other university. I have my shallow reasons and you may think it's funny but hell it's my own reason. For you, I'd study in some place that I know I'd not be happy with. Don't worry, I would not ever say these words to you because I am not the rebellious type. I am not stupid as rebelling knowing it would result to nothing.

So I am sorry for being so shallow. Yet I am not sorry for being who I am, for not being able to bag all the honors and brag all my success to you. I am sorry for being someone that you cannot understand. I am sorry. But see, I think that I would not have any courage to say these word to you personally. So let my entrance be at [YOUR chosen university] the selfless act you're looking for. I hope your happy now.